勇往直前

Theres a reason behind every persons actions. Usually， when a person acts badly， it is because she has a problem or just simply because she is holding on to her past. Based on my personal experience， I realized that the reason behind the change of my perspective on the importance of education is my disappointment of not making the top ten in middle school. I discovered that keeping that inside stopped me from doing my best in high school and in order to be able to do better， I just had to relinquish it.

In the year 2004， my family decided to migrate to the United States. Therefore， I had to leave the life I was accustomed to behind. I left my friends and most importantly， I left the chance of graduating elementary school as a valedictorian. When I came to Guam， I started attending Benavente Middle School as a sixth grader. However， because I came late， I only had to be a sixth grader for four months.

Ive always done really well in school and I did not want moving to a different country to stop me from performing my best. When I was in middle school， I made sure that my education was my first priority. I did all my work， turned things in on time， as well as studied for tests and quizzes. I even got in the National Junior Honor Society注. I was confident that finally， I would be able to go on stage and be part of the top ten. However， despite my hard work， I found out that I could not be on it because I did not attend some specific lessons for the whole three years. Hearing this， I felt like all my hard work went to waste.

When I started going to high school， I still kept that disappointment inside. I still could not believe that I worked so hard on something but my hard work did not pay off. In freshman year， I got tired of trying. I told myself not to try anymore. I was not being myself and I did not care about school. Instead， I cared about how to have fun. I was contented on passing and did not try to get excellent grades. When I got my report card， my grades were just average. I did not even want to show it to my parents because I knew they would be disappointed. Things stayed the same in sophomore year. I still did not care about my grades because of the disappointment I felt in middle school.

Finally， in junior year， I decided to let things go and not dwell on the past. Why not let things go and move on now that I still had time to correct my mistakes？ I started putting more time and effort into my studies and I saw improvement in my grades day by day. Not only was I doing better in school， I also felt a lot better not thinking about the unhappy past anymore. If only I did it earlier， then maybe I would have done better in school in freshman and sophomore year. In the last year， I was so proud of my grades and was excited to show them to my parents. I became more interested in school. I realize that Im so much happier that I let things go. I enjoy the fact that Im doing so well in school and Im trying my best.

As they always say， everyone makes mistakes. The only difference is that some people learn from them while others repeat them. Theres always a reason why a person starts acting in such a certain way and sometimes all she has to do is let things go. My experience taught me that valuable lesson. It is never good holding on to things and in order to move forward， you need to let go of the past.

每個(gè)人行為的背后總會(huì)有一個(gè)原因。通常，一個(gè)人表現(xiàn)不好，可能是因?yàn)樗欣щy，又或者僅僅是因?yàn)樗€沉浸在過去。從自身經(jīng)歷中，我意識(shí)到自己之所以改變了對(duì)教育重要性的看法，是因?yàn)槲覍?duì)于自己沒能在讀初中時(shí)拿到前十名感到很失望。我發(fā)現(xiàn)，由于一直把這件事放在心上，我難以在高中全力以赴。為了做得更好，我必須放下它。

2004年，家人決定移民到美國(guó)，我不得不離開我所熟悉的生活。我得和朋友們分開，而最為重要的是，我失去了在畢業(yè)典禮上作為代表致告別詞的機(jī)會(huì)。來(lái)到關(guān)島后，我開始作為一名六年級(jí)生在貝納文特中學(xué)學(xué)習(xí)。然而，因?yàn)槲襾?lái)得晚，我只在那個(gè)班學(xué)習(xí)了四個(gè)月。

之前我在學(xué)校的表現(xiàn)一直都很不錯(cuò)，我并不想因?yàn)橐泼竦搅硪粋€(gè)國(guó)家就讓我不再做到最好。當(dāng)我還是初中生的時(shí)候，我確保我的學(xué)業(yè)放在第一位。我完成了所有作業(yè)、按時(shí)上交，并且為各種考試和小測(cè)驗(yàn)努力學(xué)習(xí)。我甚至還成為了國(guó)家初中榮譽(yù)生會(huì)的成員。我深信，我最終能站在臺(tái)上成為前十名中的一員?？杀M管我非常努力，我發(fā)現(xiàn)我都無(wú)法被評(píng)選為優(yōu)秀學(xué)生，因?yàn)橛行┨囟ǖ恼n程我未學(xué)滿三年。得知此事后，我感覺自己的全部努力都付之東流了。

上了高中以后，我的內(nèi)心依舊十分沮喪。我實(shí)在難以相信自己付出了這么多卻得不到回報(bào)。在高一的時(shí)候，我懶得繼續(xù)努力了，我也告訴自己無(wú)需再努力學(xué)習(xí)了。我不再做自己，也不關(guān)心學(xué)習(xí)。相反，我關(guān)心的是如何玩得開心。我不再努力爭(zhēng)取更優(yōu)秀的成績(jī)，光及格我就心滿意足了。我拿到成績(jī)單時(shí)，得知自己的成績(jī)僅是平均水平。我甚至不想把我的成績(jī)單拿給父母看，因?yàn)槲抑浪麄円欢〞?huì)失望。到高二時(shí)，情況還是沒有什么改善。由于初中時(shí)留在心里的那股沮喪感，我對(duì)自己的成績(jī)依舊毫不在意。

終于，到了高三，我決心放下過去，不再繼續(xù)沉湎其中了。既然我還有時(shí)間來(lái)糾正自己的錯(cuò)誤，為何不放下過去、大步向前呢？我開始投入更多的時(shí)間和努力到學(xué)習(xí)當(dāng)中，成績(jī)也漸漸有所進(jìn)步。不僅我在學(xué)校表現(xiàn)得越來(lái)越好，不再想著過去不愉快的事也讓我感覺好多了。要是我能夠早點(diǎn)覺悟，或許我在高一和高二時(shí)就可以表現(xiàn)得更好。最后一年，我為自己取得的成績(jī)感到驕傲，我也常懷著激動(dòng)的心情給父母看成績(jī)單。我對(duì)學(xué)校生活更感興趣了。坦然釋懷之后，我感覺自己比以前開心了許多。我很享受自己在學(xué)校表現(xiàn)出色并且繼續(xù)全力以赴的過程！

人們常說(shuō)，每個(gè)人都會(huì)犯錯(cuò)。唯一不同的是，有的人會(huì)從中吸取教訓(xùn)，而有的人卻重蹈覆轍。一個(gè)人如何處事，背后總有她的原因。有時(shí)候，她能做的就只有放下。我的經(jīng)歷給我上了寶貴的一課。對(duì)以前發(fā)生的事耿耿于懷，總歸是不好的。想要繼續(xù)前進(jìn)，你必須放下過去。

注：即美國(guó)國(guó)家初中榮譽(yù)生會(huì)，為初中階段的學(xué)生所設(shè)立，意在表彰在學(xué)業(yè)成績(jī)、領(lǐng)導(dǎo)才能、社區(qū)服務(wù)及道德品質(zhì)均有突出表現(xiàn)的初中生。