A Hug from Mom
When I tried to hug her, she'd tell me it was too hot for hugs. So I learned to stop trying. We never had conversations①conversation 英 [k?nv?'se??(?)n] 美 [,kɑnv?'se??n] n. 交談,會話;社交;交往,交際;會談;(人與計算機(jī)的)人機(jī)對話.I thought it was normal②normal 英 ['n??m(?)l] 美 ['n?rml]adj. 正常的;正規(guī)的,標(biāo)準(zhǔn)的n. 正常;標(biāo)準(zhǔn);常態(tài). It was all I knew. I always thought the relationship③relationship 英 [r?'le??(?)n??p] 美 [r?'le??n'??p]n. 關(guān)系;關(guān)聯(lián)between a mother and a child was about giving and receiving orders④order 英 ['??d?] 美 ['?rd?] n. 命令;順序;規(guī)則;[貿(mào)易]定單vt. 命令;整理;定購vi. 命令;定貨. But when I was ten years old,I went to a friend's house to do a school project. At first I remember feeling sorry for him. His family was so poor. There was almost nothing in the house. But when we walked inside,his mom gave him such a big hug. And she was so happy to see him. And that was the saddest moment of my life. Because I never knew that was something you could have. My mom still doesn't hug me. But I think we're on the way to that. I had an asthma⑤asthma 英 ['?sm?] 美 ['?zm?] n. [內(nèi)科 ][中醫(yī) ] 哮喘,氣喘attack⑥attack 英 [?'t?k] 美 [?'t?k] n. 攻擊;抨擊;疾病發(fā)作vt. 攻擊;抨擊;動手干vi. 攻擊;腐蝕recently, and I felt so weak, and she told me I could lay my head in her lap⑦lap 英 [l?p] 美 [l?p] n. 一圈;膝蓋;下擺;山坳 vt. 使重疊;拍打;包圍vi. 重疊;輕拍;圍住. I can't explain how special⑧special 英 ['spe?(?)l] 美 ['sp??l] n. 特使,特派人員;特刊;特色菜;專車;特價商品adj. 特別的;專門的,專用的that made me feel.
我想擁抱她,她說抱著太熱了,所以我學(xué)會了不再嘗試。我們從沒有過真正的談話,我覺得那很正常,我所知道的就是這樣的,我一直以為母親和孩子之間就是她說什么你做什么。但我10歲時去一個朋友家做一個學(xué)校布置的任務(wù),記得一開始我還為他難過呢:他家窮得叮當(dāng)響,可以說是家徒四壁。但我們一進(jìn)門,他媽媽就給了他一個好大的擁抱,她看到他好開心哦。那是我這輩子最難過的時刻,因為我從不知道那是我本來可以擁有的。我媽媽還是不擁抱我,但我認(rèn)為我們正朝著那個方向去:最近我哮喘發(fā)作,渾身沒勁兒,她跟我說我可以把頭放在她腿上。說不出來那讓我感覺有多特別。